I lay restless at night up to wee hours drowning in my own loneliness. For I brought this upon myself. My lies was my own downfall, my stepping out my relationship was the destruction of myself. Now, my nights and days consist of unhappiness, lonliness and no sense of being joyful about anything. I try to smile but behind it cry deeply. I caused these problems for myself. I caused my unhappiness. I caused my lonliness. I pity myself. With no wishes of sympathy from others. My troubles are my only company.