Its been officially 3 years since I started letting you guys into my mind and sharing my writing with you guys. It’s been a wonderful ride with you guys and I am grateful for the feedback and comments I get. The support and love is everything to a writer along with the passion for writing. I wanna thank my girl, Lisa, for constantly pushing me to not give up on myself. My grandma, Peggy; for always my dedicated fan. To all my new followers, welcome to my mind. I wanna give a shout out to LScott for being supportive to my thoughts. Check out her blog at check out the amazing poetry. Definitely a veteran to my blog. Thank you to everyone. I am really grateful. I look forward to sharing more with. One love. Again, thank you. Couldn’t have done it with out yall.
Softly growing inside,
Not yet ready to come into the world,
Yet I still wish you made it here.
On this day of Mother’s Day I toast to you,
Praying that you are in a better place right now since your not here with me and your mom,
I know you watch us go through up and downs,
For your father is not perfect.
I wish I could have been.
I can imagine that you would have looked like your mom with daddy’s big nose.
I wish you the best my love.
Daddy will be with you when his time comes.
I love you.
Swift with courage rambling with the words of poetry,
just chopping down competition like poultry.
Some say I’m cocky about my writing which is possible,
for I’m not scare to write about the impossible.
For I can write about the scariest parts of life,
cause my poetry slices emotions like a knife.
shadowed by darkness,
my writing has been formed from this uniqueness.
For only free vesrse is what I love making,
bad feedback I have no problem taking.
Well, another awesome birthday. Can’t believe I’m 25. Thank to my beautiful fiance for cooking an awesome dinner. Bbq ribs cooked in a slow cooker and home made mac and cheese. With an awesome birthday cake. Thanks to my mom and step father to be for the awesome gifts and smiles. Thanks to my grandparents for their love and support. Thanks to friends and family for an awesome day. I love you all. I had a blast.
I’ve been through a lot with the woman I love dearly. For she has blessed me with the best christmas present ever by coming home. I can’t express how happy I am. I can’t wait to enjoy the marry life with her. She is my everything and I will spend everyday trying to keep her happy and every sad day holding her and cheering her up. I love you so much, babe. You are my world. We are going on four years together. I can’t wait for it to be forever.
What words shall be spoken?
What measures should be taken?
What bounds should be held?
What time should spent?
Fuck it, sacrifice it all for the one you love. She’ll love that you sacrificed for her.
After a long day at work from eleven o’clock this morning till Twelve this evening and not seeing my son since this morning. It feels good to come home and see him. He was glad to see me, but he misses his momma most of all. I miss her too. I’m glad to be home right now, but most of all I’m just glad to come home to his meow.
I am here to announce my conviction of hurting the one person that was always there. Always showed me undying love. A person who never gave up on me. Who was always grateful for everything I did for her. I broke her heart and everything else. I am not proud of this whatsoever. I am ashamed by my actions. Ashamed of the fucked up things I said to her. Things you don’t say to someone you love, who is your life. I lied, cheated and did other things I’m not proud of. I don’t want anyone else for the reason that I was only happy with her. I wouldn’t be able to love another like I love her. My love for her is undying and eternal and will not give that up for anyone. I failed her when she needed me most. She did everything she could for me. She was always there. She is innocent no matter what I have learned and applied to my life a lot since of break up. I do miss her everyday and continuely love her. But I hurt her so bad that I can’t even prove to her what I have accomplished. It all seems worthless to me. Like I did it for nothing. I pushed her away when I never wanted that, but to her my actions didn’t show that. I have no way of proving it to her. I don’t know through all the anger and hatred if you honestly see that I want to prove myself to her even if she never wanted me ever. She made it so hard to wake up and go about my day without thinking about her. Songs that I play sometimes repeat over and over cause its how I feel. I agree with a song that explains how I feel. Been feeling. Will I ever see salvation? No, I am forever damned. I have to get use to it. For lost everything in my world as it crumbled down on me. I see her pain and can empathize and put myself in her shoes. I wouldn’t want that done to me. But she made it hard for me to breathe.
We are humans with emotions. When we are upset We say things we don’t mean. Its not right. Just cause we are hurt doesn’t mean we hurt the ones we love. I did and I should feel like shit just like I am now. People change but it helps when someone believes we are trying to change. When that one person stops believing it makes you feel that there is no hope for you. I was in that position and said something I didn’t mean to someone very important. But what I said out of anger was childish, immature and shows to that person that in their mind I haven’t changed. I am forever sorry. But I can’t take back what was already said. 😦
Some people can’t forgive cause they don’t know how. If we held on to grudges we could never be happy. How can you say you love someone or care about them if you don’t give them a chance to get ahold of you or ask if they are okay? No, you just call them a liar. And curse them out. At least I can own up to my problems openly. I don’t have to put on a front for anybody. A man who made bad choices or mistakes doesn’t make him a bad person. But you will never know shit about anyone if you can’t put yourself in their shoes too. Things can go both ways.
Okay, when I last left you guys off with things in my life it was crazy. Well, over the past weeks my blog has been crazy so has my life. 2014 is almost here and I can’t imagine what will happen. A lot of my views on things has change.I look back on my life and wonder did it really all happen or if it some fucked up nightmare I’m trapped in. You asked me through email what was going on. I told that person ask no questions and I’ll tell no lies. The mind is complex just as the heart. So many questions asked but to no avil they have no answer. So, let answer you guys now. Life is all but a nightmare to me. If you walked this road I walked you’ll never tell neither. Its not worth telling. Someone else questioned so of my recent works. Asked for a ending to the story. I laughed after reading this yesterday. So, if that person is still waiting for his answer…here it is. There is no ending. The book is a fragment of my memories. A memior. I don’t know what the rest of life has planned for me but I don’t plan to wait to find out my fate. Another person asked me something before I started writing this. My answer was simple…a simple fairy tale that start the way they all do…Once upon a time. So, today I say to all. Forget the story. There isn’t one. It was all a fragment of a memory.
Linkin Park-waiting for the end.
Hawthorne heights-ohio is for lovers
I lay restless at night up to wee hours drowning in my own loneliness. For I brought this upon myself. My lies was my own downfall, my stepping out my relationship was the destruction of myself. Now, my nights and days consist of unhappiness, lonliness and no sense of being joyful about anything. I try to smile but behind it cry deeply. I caused these problems for myself. I caused my unhappiness. I caused my lonliness. I pity myself. With no wishes of sympathy from others. My troubles are my only company.
Have you ever wanted revenge against someone? Here’s the thing, I have. However, revenge is one of the most deadly actions you can commit. Do you know why? Its could start off by rumors leading up to physical confrontations and maybe someone their life. The sad thing is not too many people think about this before wanting and actually getting revenge on someone. I believe in karma; which is whatever you do to someone will come back to you tenfold. Maybe not right away, but eventually it will come back to you. If you fought or whatever the case may be with someone then they or you decide to get revenge it will come back to you or may be to them. For every action there’s a consquence. Think smartly about you’re future choices.
I would like to send my prayers out to the people in Boston. They have experienced a horrible and terrifying dilemma recently. I send my condolences the many families that has lost someone dear to them or that had someone dear to them get injured in the tragic incident. I hope that all families that has family that fell victims to this incident that are still in the hospitals pull through and remain strong. I hope the best for you all.
It been awhile. Damn, Sometimes I feel like my writing skills are being sucked out of me. I feel like I’m losing the passion. WTF. This isn’t like me at all. There’s so much going on in my life that i hadn’t had a chance to write. However, when I get home tonight. I will be putting that pen to pad and come up with something. Lol. I miss writing so much.
I know it been awhile since I last wrote, but I apologize for coming back pissed off.
This morning I would like to talk about grudges. Now, us men and women have done things that has mad someone at us or us mad at them. Whether it was a repeated thing or not. As an example, myself for instant. I “LOVE” my fiance to death. I would do anything for her. Get her what she wanted if it was in my power. I wouldnt want to change that for the world. Now, even though i love her with all my heart and soul, i went astray a few times during our relationship. I regret that truly because i hurt her deeply emotionally and maybe mentally. Who knows. She has taken me back almost every time. (I am not bragging about this). A situation happened in one of our arguements, things were said etc,etc,etc. We broke up. We ended up getting back together a few months later, but because of that her trust for me was obliterated. No matter what i could be doing that doesnt invovle infidelity with talking to people, if a text or something said feels outta place the first question asked is am
i cheating. Now, i have been trying my hardest and best daily to prove that i love her, wanna be with her, marry her, and grow grey and old till my dying day. The more i do to prove that the more it becomes harder and harder to prove. You cant change the they think. You can only show and convince them to see and witness with their own eyes that you are doing what you need to be do. Yes, i should have been doing that along from the beginning, but we are all humans. We make mistakes. I have asked myself many times over if i should give up and move on in my life or if i should fight to prove to the woman i love that i would always love her eternally and that i am actually telling the truth and hiding nothing. I chose to fight for my relationship and i always will until that desicion is no longer mine to decide. The fact is grudges are a dangerous thing. It can hurt someone emotionally,mentally, and physically. However, it can also push away the ones who love you most till they
are non-existant anymore. So, if you cant let the grudges go or the one that means the world of life to you. Then, maybe we as humans should start to choose one or the other. It may not be a decision anyone will ever have to decide between, but maybe in the end whatever ever one we as people may choose; maybe it was for the best. No matter if it gonna hurt us. Just for a little while.
Well, My birthday was great. A lot of friends and family wished me happy birthday, which made me feel very loved. It started at 12:00am with birthday cupcakes. Next, followed a delicious birthday breakfast of sunny side eggs, bacon, toasted english muffins and a nice cup of coffee. I got money and “True Blood: Season 4” as gifts. It was awesome and what way to spend your birthday than spend it with your other half. :-). Good Times.
I can’t believe it. I’ve survived 24 years of being in this world. Amazing accomplishment. I feel as old as the cro mag era. Lol. I’m just glad to be living. I cant ask for more. I hope this friday is awesome.
I wanna widsh everyone who is following the blog and their family a Merry Christmas. And a Happy New Year. May you enjoy today and Happy chankua to all the Jewish families. And every other holidays I missed to say for all the other cultures.
Arguments, Break ups, dating, emotions, Forms of Abuse., Harmful words/actions, Hurtful words/actions, mental-health, personal feelings, Rambling, reasons, relationship, Relationship Problems, sorrow, thinking about someone, women
Arguments filled with fuming tempers, enraged people throwing accusations of blasphemy at one another; yet neither one of us are looking at each other as an innocent. Hateful and hurtful thoughts being carried out. We both justify why were right in the situation blaming the other. It’s ironic how we can hurt each other so badly when we were so passionately affectionate and deeply fond of each other. We got together because we were each other’s salvation, missing half, soul mate, and lover. Each relationship has its ups and downs. However, so does every person. Some hold stuff in and don’t tell their significant other. This tends to create problems and tension between the relationship, you guys, and wears the relationship down. So does going astray. Cheating can make the trust your lover has in you vanish. It can be hard to trust you again in the near future. It can be one of the lowest things a man or woman can do. Then, there is the matter of abuse. There are four types of abuse: Physical abuse, Mental/Emotional abuse, Sexual abuse, and verbal abuse. Most relationships see the verbal, mental/emotional, and physical abuse. Hateful and hurtful things said are most times things that will push buttons which is a form of verbal abuse. Abuse once start could sometimes be an ongoing cycle especially in arguments. The only way to change that is to admit your wrong and apologize. Don’t worry about your pride, dignity or feeling weak cause that can cause your relationship to be terminated. If the female hits you Do Not try to stop her. She will feel threaten or even more enraged. Men are stronger than women. Women are delicate flowers and that’s how they should be treated. Guys should never put their hands on women NO MATTER WHAT the situation is in any aspect. We as men should love and cherish our woman before we lose them for good.
Love is everywhere you look. It can be a friend, spouse, an ex or your pet. Love can over come any obstacle in your life. I have love for girl who is by god; the most wonderful thing that I ever loved and still love. We as humans are not perfect. We make mistakes, but we shouldn’t hold it against the person we love. This was one of my downfalls with this girl. She has never did me wrong in any way possible. I have screwed her over time to time,but I have learned from my mistakes. What I have learned is no matter what you can’t hold grudges against the person you love. It will make future arguments that you might have worst than what they may end up being. I cherish this one girl cause she didn’t do any of these things. When I was wrong I didn’t own up to it like I should have. I would do anything to mend what I broke and fix what I damaged. You must be willing to change in order to help come closer with the one you love or it will never work. If you really sorry for hurting the one you love then try to show her that through your actions.
Someone asked me today why do I write. I told him, “I don’t know. I goes because I love writing.” He looked at me with this expression of confusion on his face. Just then; it hit me like a ton of bricks. He realized I never really thought about it. To be honest, I never really did take the time to think about it. I thought about this all day long since I first saw the guy at 9:30 this morning in front of the Albany Main Public Library. It’s crazy how one person can ask you a question and the next thing you know you’ll be pondering about it in your mind all day. I write because it’s something that I’m good at. It’s something that makes me happy and I enjoy doing it. Writting lets me expression myself without any verbal communication whatsoever. It’s my way of expressing who I am as a person and show my creativity. I may not be perfect at it, but my writing is something I am willing to continue work on
My Cat, Buster
By: Albert T. Griffin
Buster is my cat who is the funniest animal I’ve ever owned. He has made me laugh when I was bored and smile when I was blue. He loves to eat, but he isn’t a fat cat. At least not compared to Garfield. Lol. If I put down water for him in his cat bowel, he’ll just knock it over. He does this every time. So, one day I’m in the bathroom brushing my teeth and he comes padding into the bathroom meowing. I smiled at him and finished rinsing my mouth out. I turned the water down thinking I had turned it off fully. I dried my hands and turned my focus to the sink once I heard the sound of someone or something lapping up water. He was up on the sink with one paw in the sink and the other on the back of the sink drinking water away. I laughed at him and said “Buster, what are you doing?” and he just replied “meeeooowww” then went back to his drinking. So, from now on when he is thirsty and you’re in the bathroom he’ll look at you then at the sink and meow. It’s the cutest thing ever.
Buster is very friendly and loves to be petted. He is the biggest attention grabber ever. In the picture below he was cleaning his kids for the first time of his life. A Kodak moment as some would say. My little guy has been the father of 11 kittens all of his own. He was a proud father and handled the responsibility well. He is currently still living with me and my fiancee. We consider him our son and love him dearly. By some of the things he does inspire me to continuing writing. I think I’ll buy him some new toys for christmas this year.